Verdandi

On Friday, April 25 2025, I wrote and submitted a letter of resignation from my administrative responsibilities.

Later that afternoon, while walking around the farm, the Fates paid me a visit in the form of three vultures that circled above me at low altitude – just circling. The fact that one was flying so low, without landing or rising caught my attention. The closest one turned in her circle and was heading directly toward me. We locked eyes for several moments, and she revealed to me that she was a Fate.

The awareness of this encounter led my spirit to say “amor fati”. She approved, blessed me, as it were, and then the three of them began to rise in altitude. The unseen vortex uniting them dissipated, and three Fates glided off in three different directions.

I felt peace about my decision. And the peace that has come from it has only grown.

The one who engaged directly with me has returned a few times.

The Oracle confirmed what I suspected – that she is a local manifestation of Verdandi (Fate Becoming) and that the blessing she bestowed was very different than the ones given by anthropomorphized gods to supplicants. She welcomed me into the fate of this land and of its spirit.

By instinctively responding with Amor Fati, I was able to receive the blessing of fate – the blessing of one who can say yes to all that was, all that is, and all that shall be. This blessing is afforded only to those who are not supplicants. One cannot wish or pray that things be different and be granted this blessing that is reserved for those ubermenschen (a concept that I need to refine).

The Oracle suggests that, because of my equanimity and openness to the presence and passing of the fates, a knot has been untied, and what was entangled is now unbound. This is represented by the fact that after Verdandi allowed herself to be recognized by me, the Fates ascended and dispersed.

She has returned to me a few times over the last ten days. Sometimes with her sisters. I believe she desires to be a companion spirit, and she is telling me that I too am becoming a spirit of this place. A young but potentially powerful spirit, I have unequalled ability to transform the place. I have done so already by depoisoning the land and creating biodiversity zones. Cultivating the natural. Investing energy into the land to make it more sustainably fruitful and complex while creating it in my image.

Verdandi confirmed my resignation from administration and acknowledged the buying of time to spend on creating a magical place that is imbued with the white spirit. She reminded me of the agency involved in amor fati and the active embrace of the world as it is through the lens of who I am: a shaman monk. I have no church. I have the land.